*~.Kiss the Rain.~*
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I often close my eyes,
And i can see you smile,
You reach out for my hand,
And i'm woken from my dream,
Although your heart is mine,
I never had your love,
And i never will.
And every night,
I lie awake,
Thinking maybe you love me,
Like i've always love you.
But how can you love me,
Like i loved you when,
You cant even look at me
Straight into my eyes.
I never felt this way,
To be so in love,
To have someone there,
Yet feel so alone,
Aren't you supposed to be,
The one who wipe my tears,
The one to say you'll never leave me.
The water's calm and still,
My reflection is there,
I see you holding me,
But then you disappear.
All that is leave is you,
Is a memory,
One that only, exists in my dream.
I dont know what hurts you,
But i can feel it too,
And it just hurts so much,
To know i cant do a thing.
And deep down in my heart,
Somehow i just know,
That no matter what,
I'll always love you.
I often close my eyes,
And i can see your smile,
You reach out for my hand,
And i'm woken from my dream,
Although your heart is mine,
It's hollow inside,
I never had your love,
And i never will.
So why am i still here in the rain.
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*~.My first blood donation.~*
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It always seems to be scary when it comes to 'blood',
Dont let me see someone bleeding there,
And next, I should be the one who will be send to hospital! >.<


I'm always in such 'lack blood' stage,
But kinda excited when this blood donation activity is going on.
So I somehow cheated one of the doctor,
And make my way straight for blood donation!!


It seems too normal for me,
My blood flows so fast and i'm so fine to be mentioned.
Until when the bag is half-fulled,
Images seems starting to get blur,
And starting to have some headache.
My blood starts to drips than flows,
I got so pale that nurses coming around me,
Checking whether i blurred off.


Waited quite long to fill up my blood bag,
And i just lay, resting for almost 30 minutes compared to others which takes bout 10 minutes.
Both hands and legs get so 'soft',
Face getting so pale,
BUT,
I'm always ready to get my 2nd blood donation in no time!!
=)))))
*kinda addicted*
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*~.Imma lazybump.~*
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'Time flies girl, wake up and get ur butt off the bed!'
Tat happens to me everyday.
Duh, time really flies.
2 weeks, 14 days and, i wasted them all.

Basically,
I sleep *the MOST*, i eat, i play, i walk around doing nothing *always*, and i get sick for 1 whole week.
As a student, i should study rite?
And i proudly present you that i never study at all for this whole 2 weeks!!
OMG,
I'm crazy right?! I'm losing control as i enjoyed myself to the fullest this honeymoon for me! =)

At least,
Someone brought me to somewhere for something that i would never ever want to forget that day, it's special~ =)
Hmm, sounds like i need someone to hit my butt in order to start those rusty engine again.

Haha,
Imma lazybump~!!
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*~.Deja Vu.~*
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'Urgh, I just got the creepiest feeling i had before~'
'Why am i having this odd feeling?'
'Oh my, i think i have been here before, things are happening too similar!'


Have you ever had this kind of feelings before?
It's simply called 'Deja Vu'.
Maybe you will find it creepy to feel it, but certainly and i believe, you experienced before.
Sure, i too experienced Deja Vu quite often and regret missing the Deja Vu movie somehow in the past.
When i was younger, this feeling occurs quite often that i can have about 10-20 times per year.
But when i'm growing older, it decreases and now seems to occur <10.
It was yesterday tuition that remind me about this odd phenomena.
I was somehow having this ohm to have some research bout it.


1. Déjà vu,is the experience of feeling sure that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously.
2. The experience of déjà vu isusually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eeriness", "strangeness", or "weirdness".
3. Since the first years of the 20th century, déjà vu has been subject to serious psychological and neurophysiological research.
4. Scientifically speaking, the most likely explanation of déjà vu is not that it is an act of "precognition" or "prophecy", but rather that it is an anomaly of memory, giving the impression that an experience is "being recalled".
5. It's the fact that the sense of "recollection" at the time is strong in most cases, but are quite uncertain.
6. In particular, this may result from an overlap between the neurological systems responsible for short-term memory (events which are perceived as being in the present) and those responsible for long-term memory (events which are perceived as being in the past).
7. The events would be stored into memory before the conscious part of the brain even receives the information and processes it.


1. British researchers are embarking on what they're calling the world's first study of chronic deja vu, a condition where people can recite details of situations or people they've never before encountered.
2. The phenomenon, which may affect one in 200 people with memory problems, is unlike the fleeting, eerie feeling people get from time to time that they've experienced something before, and that they know what's going to happen next.
3. Instead, chronic deja vu sufferers are constantly overcome by the sensation something new has happened before.
4. Depression is common, and some sufferers are initially misdiagnosed with epilepsy or labelled "delusional" and put on anti-psychotic drugs.

It's all for today.
My eyes are watery now.
Let's being excited for 'Deja Vu 2'
=)
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*~.Ta-Daaa.~*
めぐみ
Time to blog!!!
Miss all of you,
And i missed alot of stuff,
Ppl are leaving my blog..T.T
Since i'm sooo damn busy until i have no time to update it,
Then don complain jo~


Okay, make it short & sweet.
Mac exam over,
And results came out,
And it's totally a DISASTER!!
It's not wat i expect at all,
Even though i didnt prepare much, @@


Report:
1. Maths-
I thought to improve at least 1 mark since i almost fail last time,
and i got WORSE.
2.PA-
Frankly, i didnt even touch a bit of it,
then my marks dropped.
3.Econ-
Something i cant imagine at all, i got an A- last time,
now, let's dont talk bout it.
4.PP-
At least something i'm proud of, got an A for it! ^^
5.MUET-
Why just i cant get better marks and band. *mumble*


So it freaks out right?
Worse than last year,
And so i should start improving myself right?
But i end up sleeping for almost 9 hours per day.
Wat a lazy bump am i..
I should study hard!!!!
Who can motivate me??
Even sikit-sikit pun boleh..
HELP!!!
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*~.What a friend of mine.~*
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She is a friend who i knew since form 1,
A friend who is dedicated and crazy.
She is a friend who always stays by my side,
A friend who protects and loves me.
She is a friend who cries with me,
A friend who joke and laugh and get insane together.
She is a friend who helps me,
A friend who never leaves me when i'm in BIG or tiny little problem.


Today,
She is still who she is.
Still the girl i knew years and years ago,
Lol, i L-O-V-E having you as my BFF!!!

We always break into tears when we're having girly talks,
As we know that it's time to express.
We always end up in laughter,
As we know our friendship would last forever.

As we enter this new environment,
Gossip-S are trying to break us up,
Bad words trying to make us crazy,
Jealousy amongst others wanna beat us off,
But there's something they never knew,
As long as you live,
And as long as i live,
We would never blow this friendship off,
As we are still holding our hands tightly.
A knot between us that would never loose so easily,
As we build it up firmly for 7 years!

Maybe we would never chat for days, weeks or even months,
But remember girl,
You're still right inside my heart,
I would never want to leave you,
Never want to leave you alone,
I'm a friend who wants to talk to you, lead you, giving advise or even giving you an april fool joke!
=))))))


What a friend of mine!
I believe as we appreciate and nurture this relationship,
We would still come out for grandmother talk when we're in our 70's. =)


Wai Siuan,
Friendship forever.
My BFF!!!!
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*~.Couple up.~*
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Okay,
I admit, I'm really bad..
I think my blog gotta some kind of coma,
it's almost dead~
Nvm, i gotta give it some CPR right now,
Make it alive for sometime, until the next come~ =)

Lol,
Shock see-ing my tajuk??
Got 'cha!!! =ppp
Actually it's not me who coupled up, i'm referring to my fb frens..
Lately, i found out tat lots and lots of friends coupled up..
Trend nowadays??
Then i'm seriously outdated..!! >.<

Couple up is something good, actually..
Hmm, depends on who ur partner is..
It's real not easy to stay iar for my age now, i mean for those who are mature enough~
Those so-call-yesterday-secondary-puppy-love doesn't work at all for NOW~!!
Why??
They are sure whys and wherefores, figure it out urself..

Alrite, 1 more thing.
During 21th january 2010, somehow it was my 19th birthday,
And i saw a full-moon infront of my house~ =p
YOU get wat i mean?? *hahahahah*
Thanks to ALL who celebrate my birthday wif me, and those who wished me and those who rmb me! THANKS ALOT!!! =)

Yea, i'm gotta upload photos of my birthday party later,
Totally late for now,
I'm too busy and tired to on9 dy..
Gotta leave my blog in coma state again..
Things happening around me, tonnes to say..
But i choose to keep mum! =p
Guys, see you all later~! *wink*


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*~.I'm missing someone.~*
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Yea, true enough.
I'm missing someone~!! ♥
So make a guess~
Who's that lucky one. =p
Lolz,
It's real easy.
My darn lil brother~!!
He's not gone missing,
Just attend a camp in Johor for 35 days.
It's all for his own good.
Well, as family members understand him more than anyone.
Wat i can say he desperately needs tat camp.

Today it's the 4th day.
I've started missing him on the very 1st day,
When i stepped into my house without seeing him around.
When i saw no one is in front of the laptop and it's 24/7 for me to use,
When there's no voice of his,
When there's no one for me to argue wif,
When i cant see his dirty clothing all around his room,
And when now my tears are rolling down my cheek,
He's not around me although he provides no help.
He'll just pretend he saw nothing and continue his Cabal. =.=

I need his accompany~!!!
Although i dont like his attitude, the way he talks to me,
Although we fight like mad dog and cat,
Although he'll snatch all my food and snacks,
Although we fought N times until i wonder does he treat me as a sis,

It seems so empty at home.
Although i have my aunt here,
It's still 4 ppl in this house,
I lost some feeling,
Warm,
Smiley,
Voice,
.
.
.
Frankly,
I feel lonely at home now,
31 more days to go.
It's sooooo long.
I cant really concentrate wif all my books in front of me.
Homework starting to buried me..

I'm so N,
Tat's wat ron always describe me.
He'll say :" Do you know wat's the difference between me and you?
You're so N, i'm not"
Duh,
Wat kind of brother is tat?!! >.<
But honestly,
When he's at home,
I'll complain how bad is he, how he bullied me, how he treat me n bla bla bla.
But now, i'll just fell so lonely and miss him much~!

Ron,
I miss you alot although i know how bad you treat me. @@
Make good use of ur time there and bring bak wat u should.
Come bak fast,
Promise jie k?
Love
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