I hide my feelings for quiet sometimes...I never want to speak it out...because it hurts and I still can't accept those reality...when I think about you...it hurts and I feel...I ask...why are you like that...I can't imagine why and how you change so desperately...I do know...you have this attitude...this sead inside you...but I believe this friendship won't be affected no matter how you change...why...? Because we face a lots of problems, matters, big deals small deals together...this friendship never shakes for years...but it becomes hard and stable...I really do thank God for this friend...we share happy and bad times together...we laugh and cry together...we talk and study at the same time...it is good to have you with me...no matter we are playing or arguing...
When I step into high school...I learn what is true friendship...and I do appreciate...we met and we cling our hands together...I am always happy to have you with me...I do learn a lot from you...eventhough we always talk rubbish...but through those rubbish talks...I learn meaningfull and precious things...sometimes...I also have day-dreams about us...being the best buddy for life! Just like my mother and her buddy...I do admire my mom...she has many friends and she won't forget them as she borrows her hands when they need...maybe......this do call day-dreams...I am a day-dreamer...day-dreams won't come true............
I am not quite sure...why we just suddenly stop contact each other...maybe you will think that is me who put you aside since I have him...but that is not true ya...I didn't forget about you even...because I saw you having another gang of friends...then...if hurts somehow but I know I can't stop you since I am busying with my activities...you get closer to them and sometimes...I can't find you during recess...maybe...you think that I 'throw' you away...NO...I didn't...I come back after those activities and found that...there are tons and tons of things I don't know about you...I stay beside you since then but nothing works...maybe you find them cool so I just sit beside...thinking that we will still be the best buddy in the earth...but...true enough...our relationship gets further and further......so then...spm coming...each busying prepare our ownself......
Never mind jo...never mind...things still can change during this long long holiday...I tell myself...things will go back straight...ya...slowly...I have faith in this friendship again...but...things become worse...I chat with you...sms...msn...you treat me so cool, cold...(freeze)...and here comes climax...you become worst...!
You changed...your mind...your mind set changed...you become so realistic...(although I didn't mention how and what my friend does)...you become so realistic...you prefer reality than friendship...you choose reality than me...reality over takes our friendship...! Because I does not have anything...you leave me...why...? Why does reality sit on top of your mind...that it climb, hit and step our friendship...we were best friend...I thought your realistic attitude won't hurt this friendship...you change from bad to worse...from worse to worst...I can't recognise you...you have a 180' change...your attitude talking to me is equal to a someone who's talking to a someone that the someone wants to get rid off...it HURTS...Hurts......so much.........
Ya...sometimes...I just want to make your dreams come true...let you go...just go...go and dissappear from my life...since you dislike me so much...but...do you know how difficult to find a friend that know your heart...you know mine...and I know yours...but these was history...in my mind...I still can't delete you from my mind...as you are there forever...you are such a good, nice and sweet friend...but...you changed........you let reality destroy everything important for me...where do this hack FRIENSHIP FOREVER comes from................
Nevertheless...no matter how you treat me...how your eyesight fall on me...to me...you are still my friend...forever......as I am serious in this friendship...bravo my friend...you did a great job in your life...run towards your aim and meet success...remember me...sometimes...as we WERE great buddies before...I miss you, friend............
别想太多啦...
她还永远是你的好朋友的..
友谊往往比爱情来得更真实..
你认为她变了，但也许她的心其实还有你的..
Hey...talking bad things behind me ya..?
Actually is realy nothing k..V're stil like b4,stil buddies..is juz tat i dnt like being bulb..mayb is my fault tat i dnt break the ice..bt i realy dnt 1 2 b a disturbance..i realy hate being disturbance..
if tat realy make u feel uneasy,i'm so sory..bt if tat make u think i had changed,i realy cnt agree wit it..wat do u mean by i changed..4 being cool 2 u?wat do u mean by realistic?tat 1 i realy realy dnt understand..4 u,i'm tat type of pple?if ans is yes,i'm speechless..
i realy dnt think i changed..juz tat when u r busy wit ur activities,i chat wit others..n when i knw them better,i go closer wit them..(tat happen a long period after ur absence,n i realy cnt used 2 tat..u should knw hw much i hate being bored,n hw we stick together b4 tat).. i nvr purposely ignore u b4 u n him in relation..is juz tat u busy wit ur stuff n v seldom chat..
when u juz start dating,i try nt 2 disturb..leaving more space 4 u 2..n i nvr thought tat harms..he teach u 4 spm preparation..n i found other fren 2 teach me..is tat problem wit tat part..i'm realy sory i dnt realise..
then exam..then..holiday..the 1st thing after spm is u go taiwan,if i'm nt mistaken..
its true v lose contact 4 a period..maybe u dnt remember wat happen after u bac frm taiwan..ur relation wit him nt vry stable..coz he think u changed..i discuss wit him everyday at our working spot,bout u..its nt tat worst til u work at t1..even i felt changes..bt when u quit the job,everything goes back normal..bt stil,i n him chat bout u,everyday..
i knw he loves u..n u enjoy sticking wit him everyday..at truth,i'm a little admire..bt realy happy u found a gud man..
i stil remember 1 time u 2 argue..he cal me 4 help..i msg u,bt u dnt reply(maybe u realy in bad mood)..i giv another try..bt stil,u dnt reply..realy dissapointed,bt juz leav it(i bet u dnt remember a thing bout tat)..the other day he tel me,u n him ok dy..tat time i realy felt used dy..coz i gt all ur latest news updated everyday frm him(till he quit the job),nvr frm u..
i realy dnt knw wat do u mean by i change n dnt treat u as fren dy..if i realy hate u tat much,should i go n chat wit him everyday bout u..frm our chatting n above incident i found tat he loves u deeply n u realy needs him n ambil berat him lot compared 2 me..then i dnt 1 2 disturb u dating so much..its oni tat,i swear..
i'm realy nt used 2 days nt sticking wit u n i miss it..i appreciate our friendship n nvr tried 2 break it..i juz dnt 1 2 disturb my buddy life tat much..if i stick wit u everyday n everytime like b4 when u r dating,i bet u n i wnt enjoy it..both of u oso wnt enjoy it..
mayb standing at different point,v'll hav different point of view..bt mayb tat made u think i changed when i dnt think so..
juz 1 2 tell u..v r best frenz,nw n future..i'm realy sory 4 giving u 2 much spaces..until there r gap between us..pls 4giv me,k? bt i realy hope u oso cn try stand at my point n understand..i realy dnt do tat purposely 2 hurt u n make u sad..n of coz nt trying 2 break our friendship..pls dnt be sad..
FRENZ 4EVER..