变身--工作狂
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这个漫漫的长假期中...我真是忙到...就来要傻了...嘻嘻...开玩笑啦...其实是忙到没有一天可以好好地休息...跟读书的日子没什么大分别...总之是不停地忙就对了......差别就是我不在学校学院忙...布再跟书本...学业有什么地关系.......我现在忙的就是工作...cheh...可能你会说工作罢了嘛...但......我学习到工作与读书的差别......做工...工作真的很辛苦...好累......读书的时候...我可以天天三点凌晨才去见周公...但工作完全不一样...即时我天天准时十点睡觉...明天早上一样没有精神......你会问...我到底是不是做什么粗工...不是啦不是...我变身做office girl...现在正是一间大工厂的clerk耶...clerk?? 有什么辛苦喔...我开始也是认为...能做office工真的很好喔...不会像在terminal 1做工那么辛苦...工作时间又短...天天晚上还能在家看戏呢......我的黑眼圈不用几久就冒出来了...只需要短短一个星期...又恢复身分便回熊猫了...气死了...之前好不容易才把它们消掉...现在又跑出来...才一个星期...我还会在这儿工作到五月勒...想象不到五月的我是怎样的我......唉...

我天天的工作堆积如山...我从来都没有听过身为clerk的...竟然天天都有urgent的工作勒...赶完一个又一个...同事们都说工作还长过命...但好的是...这里的同事都对我特别地好...没办法嘛...因为我最小哟...疼都疼我咯...哈哈哈...公司的活动多的是...一下下auditor来...过一下下...ISO又跑进来...又多一下下...IQA又来...忙都忙死啊...!!我是在finance department的...之前那些人勒...什么鬼都没有filing...现在勒...什么鬼都要filing..."好消息"的是...这些什么鬼的filing都要我作完...!哟...变态乜...我一个人作完勒...多少年的...多少月的...全部要拿完出来作过...我就来要做傻了...傻了.........

就是因为那些变态的工作...我差不多天天都要做OT (over time) ...最迟的...做到晚上12点...应该是凌晨12点...我发梦都没有想过我竟然会做到酱迟...工作狂这名非我莫属...隔天7点起身又要去上班...感觉上......我真的踏入社会了...在真的社会做工...与大人面对面处理每个问题...能感觉到那工作的压力...担心老板骂...走进老板的房...见CEO的心情...都是真的喔...我......都能真正地feel到喔...

毕竟我是个clerk...但大多数杂工都是我做的...也因为酱哟...我有muscle咯...真的...不再是以前的taufu...搬的都不是我以前能搬的...现在能做的...都不是以前的我能办到的...我......进步了...这也是因为...这里每个人都把我当大人看待...对待......虽然我的年龄最小...但......在他们的眼中我是哥哥大人了......所以有很多事情...我都必须逼自己进步...不能让自己败在这些小小的事情里......加油哟.......!

在社会做工...做的当然不同咯...听的...当然也不一样咯......天天跟同事出去吃东西...听他们谈的话题...觉得好新鲜哟...完全都不是我所谈的...我以前跟一大班朋友所谈的...谈的话题都好成熟哦...顿时觉得...我以前所聊的话题好幼稚哟...哈哈......在这方面...我也学习了很多很多...不管在哪方面...都明白了很多...学习了很多.........

在公司做工总是特别地辛苦...特别地累...但我还是很感谢神...能进入一个大公司做工...经历...学习......可能我还是会羡慕天天在家当量地官的朋友...但想想下...我学习的...是用钱都买不到的哟...收益不浅...^^

做工归做工...学习归学习......但...没有了他......我总是空空的...好空...寂寞孤单......辛苦,累，心里的难受，挫折...我又能告诉谁呢...没有人......看着电话...一天又一天...一个星期又一个星期...电话还是没有动静...这......你明白吧...?你之前每天所做的...都没做了...我能做的...就只有等待......希望你会知道我的苦处......

不说伤心的啦......我这份好辛苦...卖力的工作...做到这个月尾就不做了...人总是要休息的啊...我休息的时间总要来临了...终于有休息的时间咯...^^ 但怎样说...都会不舍得公司...同事的嘛...呵呵...没办法...我还是个学生嘛...在公司做工这些压力...对学生来说太辛苦咯......进入社会这些东东...等改次才说嘛...我又要开始享受下当学生的荣幸与快乐...嘻嘻......

工作狂...掰掰咯......中六...我来咯.........happy to be a student~
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EARS...I need......
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I can tell u that...I am not talking bad about you...it is just letting my feelings out...I have been hidding these for months...they just make me sick...just wanna let it out...actually I don't want anyone to know who I am talking about...just want to lock this blog...then...u turn up...never mind...but...sorry...I didn't confront you but just let this feelings grow in me......



You should know that...beside than him...I also need you...as you're my best friend...I still remember those days when we run and escape from those 'bad students'...get punish by disipline teacher...me too...can't accept that you changed...but it's not only me that feel about your changes...so...sorry......others also feel about your changes...I am only the shocked one...but they didn't......



I know you want to leave space for us...thanks a lot...I and him enjoy being togethervery much...but this doesn't mean that I forget about you...I STILL remember your message...really...I don't mean not to reply you...but I am mad that time...I just...need some time to get myself back...saying the truth...my emotions really swings when I am back from taiwan...up and down...I say: "Break up..." but...inside my heart I still love him very much...I cried many times in T1...my friends there help me up a lot...argues with family, parents and also him......since I came back from Taiwan...everybody treats me like alien...! sorry to tell everyone...I, Joanne lim didn't change at all...it's just you guys think that I am not the same through my apperance...But...I am still the same old me...my 18th birthday...unforgettable...worst...freakin sad...! 18th should be really happy and glad...because I am a grown up girl...But...my family and I...yor...hard to describe...just...many unhappy things happen to me...a lot...bunch......



It's not that I want to hide my stuff up...the problem is...you don't want to talk to me...that's not space...it's reflecting to me that this friendship won't go long...prepare your heart...I ask you about your life...your family...your stuff...you just say: "nothing lor..." ok...that's all...nothing...you've gone with another friends...ya...good.



Although I have him...I still need friends...there are times that i want to hang out with you guys...when I see him with his gang of friends...so sweet...so hurt...because I don't have you already...the one who care of my feelings is not here...but...by the way...thanks to those who help me up when I am down...( "not the best friend but good friend"...haha) and also SHE...they do listen to me...but later on...busy again with their stuff...I am alone now...I need someone to listen to what I cry out...his absence makes my life upside down...especially my mood...haiz...flows up and bang down...so I just keep myself busy with my job...in the office...stress man...working in an office is totally different environment and experience from working out there......



Blank...feel blank...so much words to speak out...so much feelings to express...so much thoughts to splash out...but no one is there...feel depressed inside...no one is there to let me cry out...my life is so BLANK......empty hole inside ya...suddenly...I lost my way...when his hands let go...where are you guys...I...just need you guys ears...to listen to me......



EARS...I need.........
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Reality...? Friendship...?
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I hide my feelings for quiet sometimes...I never want to speak it out...because it hurts and I still can't accept those reality...when I think about you...it hurts and I feel...I ask...why are you like that...I can't imagine why and how you change so desperately...I do know...you have this attitude...this sead inside you...but I believe this friendship won't be affected no matter how you change...why...? Because we face a lots of problems, matters, big deals small deals together...this friendship never shakes for years...but it becomes hard and stable...I really do thank God for this friend...we share happy and bad times together...we laugh and cry together...we talk and study at the same time...it is good to have you with me...no matter we are playing or arguing...


When I step into high school...I learn what is true friendship...and I do appreciate...we met and we cling our hands together...I am always happy to have you with me...I do learn a lot from you...eventhough we always talk rubbish...but through those rubbish talks...I learn meaningfull and precious things...sometimes...I also have day-dreams about us...being the best buddy for life! Just like my mother and her buddy...I do admire my mom...she has many friends and she won't forget them as she borrows her hands when they need...maybe......this do call day-dreams...I am a day-dreamer...day-dreams won't come true............


I am not quite sure...why we just suddenly stop contact each other...maybe you will think that is me who put you aside since I have him...but that is not true ya...I didn't forget about you even...because I saw you having another gang of friends...then...if hurts somehow but I know I can't stop you since I am busying with my activities...you get closer to them and sometimes...I can't find you during recess...maybe...you think that I 'throw' you away...NO...I didn't...I come back after those activities and found that...there are tons and tons of things I don't know about you...I stay beside you since then but nothing works...maybe you find them cool so I just sit beside...thinking that we will still be the best buddy in the earth...but...true enough...our relationship gets further and further......so then...spm coming...each busying prepare our ownself......


Never mind jo...never mind...things still can change during this long long holiday...I tell myself...things will go back straight...ya...slowly...I have faith in this friendship again...but...things become worse...I chat with you...sms...msn...you treat me so cool, cold...(freeze)...and here comes climax...you become worst...!


You changed...your mind...your mind set changed...you become so realistic...(although I didn't mention how and what my friend does)...you become so realistic...you prefer reality than friendship...you choose reality than me...reality over takes our friendship...! Because I does not have anything...you leave me...why...? Why does reality sit on top of your mind...that it climb, hit and step our friendship...we were best friend...I thought your realistic attitude won't hurt this friendship...you change from bad to worse...from worse to worst...I can't recognise you...you have a 180' change...your attitude talking to me is equal to a someone who's talking to a someone that the someone wants to get rid off...it HURTS...Hurts......so much.........


Ya...sometimes...I just want to make your dreams come true...let you go...just go...go and dissappear from my life...since you dislike me so much...but...do you know how difficult to find a friend that know your heart...you know mine...and I know yours...but these was history...in my mind...I still can't delete you from my mind...as you are there forever...you are such a good, nice and sweet friend...but...you changed........you let reality destroy everything important for me...where do this hack FRIENSHIP FOREVER comes from................


Nevertheless...no matter how you treat me...how your eyesight fall on me...to me...you are still my friend...forever......as I am serious in this friendship...bravo my friend...you did a great job in your life...run towards your aim and meet success...remember me...sometimes...as we WERE great buddies before...I miss you, friend............


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